Most days I try to have a well orchestrated, finely balanced, well scheduled day. I like having a goal. Making a plan. Do I realize a plan is not always possible? I do! In fact, I am so well-versed in planning and scheduling that I allow for changes in the plan which, barring total fiasco, will still allow a goal to be met. A plan to be executed. Today, my orchestrated dance-of-the-many-tasks did not go well.
I had trouble tickets to resolve, a presentation to polish, about 30 emails to read and answer and an additional 20 emails to just read. I had some small, daily tasks to clean up...then I noticed the daily part of the equation had clearly been abandoned some 4-5 weeks ago. I needed to finish 3 big projects (all in differing states of completion) test an application upgrade (which I have barely even looked at in 4 days) and write some workflows for four effected departments...alas, most of this will be waiting for me, in the exact same state as it was today, when I go to work in the morning. Yikes!
So, while my projects are still incomplete, I didn't get any testing done, and there are still two tickets I couldn't complete, I still feel I accomplished something.
Today I learned to let it go. Just for the day perhaps...Let the anxiety of not following my schedule go. Let the stress from my still incomplete projects go. Let the drama go. Just let it all go.
Tomorrow is another day. Another long, stressful, anxiety-inducing day...which I will get through and then let it go.
If you know me at all you know I am just saying that with absolutely no intention of believing I can let it go. Oh, I will try-I will put forth an incredible effort but...letting it go...not really my thing.
But, tomorrow will cue up a whole new dance style and I am getting ready to boogie!
Later...
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